The last few months I have
had some personal problems involving work and my family. They have been wearing
me down so much that I have not been sleeping well and felt really down in my
spirit. I continued to pray and read God's word but hadn't been able to
shake off the worry and anxiety that these problems have been causing. I didn't
go to church for two weeks either and was avoiding phone calls and just wanting
to be by myself.
I continued to do my bible reading plan each day and in
Matthew I have been continually reading about the people Jesus healed and how he was so happy when they had faith and did not doubt. These scriptures spoke
to me in my spirit and I realised that worrying and
being anxious was like saying to Jesus, "I don't trust you to help
me. I want to work it out my own way and in my time." When I realised this I
prayed for forgiveness and I felt God say to me, "Happy are they
who have no doubts about me." I felt his anointing upon me and since then
I have just been resting in him, trusting in him and believing in him to work all my
problems out in his timing.
I feel so much closer to God and at peace since I
have done this and know he wants me to trust him completely. I was able to
share this with a friend who has just had his wife leave him and is feeling
devastated by this turn of events. This was an encouragement to him too.